Utah Pirate Radio

It’s so awesome to have these recordings. I’d hug Kurt if I could meet up with him!  I totally connect…  If you’ve ever read my biography, you’d know why.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZKr1BVMPi4

Too bad one more had to go so early…

With the topic of pre-mature deaths, depression, and Utah teen suicide my heart is heavy for the ones that I’ve loved and lost.

I can count 14 people who were close friends of mine in Utah who have passed away in the last 10 years.
These are people whom I have stayed the night at their house, went to school with, and partied with as teenagers.   But this is just a drop in the bucket!  Utah has an epidemic with depression and teen suicide!

When I think about my death.  The after-life.  The legacy that I leave behind.  I hope very deeply that my family won’t be the family that tries to cover up the facts of my life, or the facts of my death.

Recently my friend Katie passed away, and her parents wrote a lovely obituary that also revealed the details of Katie’s struggle with drug abuse, which is what eventually was the cause of her death.

Out of all 14 of those people that I can recount that have died a premature death, this obituary is the only obituary that was honest, and that respected the wishes of the deceased.

Instead of some cryptic wording like “Katie left this life early to be with her heavenly father,” or something that is vague, and untrue to the person’s wishes who just died, these parents stated clearly that “this is what Katie would have wanted” and they went into the details of Katie’s life and death.

That is what I want.  I don’t want my life to be in vain.  I don’t want to lose my voice after I pass away.
On my drivers license it says that I am an organ donor.  I deliberately elected that choice, so that my life is useful to someone else someday.

I have started many websites.  Mostly because when I have tried to talk about Utah’s issue with depression, I get censored.  So I preserve my thoughts and my experiences by posting written posts on these message boards, and videos on YouTube and on other social networking sites.

In the early days I joined a few msn groups, because I was working for MSN, and being in their social networking sites was allowed during break and such.  So I started asking questions about Jesus, as I had just found a personal relationship with him, and I was curious about the faith of my fathers.

After a few years, my brother passed away and I returned to a topic that I had wrote about many times before.  “Depression in Utah”..  After posting much information on the subject, and calling attention to the problems in Utah.  I got banned, time and time again.  And not just banned, but my posts all got deleted about this subject over and over.

So now MSN groups is going away.  MSN is closing down that business…  But my sites are still going strong.

See them here:

www.behindzioncurtain.com
www.utahpirateradio.com
www.youtube.com/utahpirateradio
www.youtube.com/slu2com

And I have a handful of other miscellaneous blogs and websites.  These are just the main sites.

I have also made plans for these sites to remain active and open long after I pass away.

Thanks for listening/reading/watching

Sincerely,

Ryan